Christmas to me is sad this year. I am without my mom who was barely alive last Christmas but still pulled through. She died in April though. I am sad because I want to put up my Christmas tree but I can't because my arm is bad(I fell off of a chair). My husband won't put it up. I have no holiday spirit. I was thinking I am never happy at Christmas time because of my husband. I don't remember too many happy Christmas's at all. I try to make Christmas my favorite time of year until I get home. Then it's stressful.